Be My Lover, 2015

January 2nd, 2015

Everyone seems to reflect on New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day glamorously. The past year, romantic.

Me, I’m glad we kicked 2014 to the curb. Unfortunately, the clock doesn’t reset and everything that happened in 2014 didn’t just disappear.

I struggled for the greater part of 2014. It was full of challenges and missteps. I started a new job and adjusted poorly. I had hiccups on the path of loving someone else and myself. I had public fights with people and entities who simply weren’t worth my time. I was depressed and unhappy; but fortunately found relief in a therapist, psychiatrist and the best gym that matched me completely.

So for 2015, I’m not going to fill my list with empty promises. I’m expanding on what I’ve already started.

  1. Double Down on the Year of No (aka The Year of Fuck Off)
    The girlgang christened 2014 as the Year of No.  We’re doubling down and calling 2015 as the Year of Fuck Off. The motto serves to remind us that the only person we have to be committed to is ourselves. Don’t waste time on those who don’t bring value to your life, especially those who just use you or push you down. Embrace the word “no.” It doesn’t mean you’re being rude. It just means you know your limitations and what you’re all about. You can’t help anyone, especially yourself, if you’re overwhelmed by all the yeses you’ve dished out. I learned that the hard way on the job last year.
  2. Celebrate ME
    This one is important and naturally follows my first goal. According to my therapist, it’s one of my biggest hurdles. I don’t acknowledge my accomplishments or make light of them. Moving forward, I’m going to celebrate them and me. In 2014, I moved into a house, did my first half-marathon, successful launched a YouTube series for my company in two weeks time with no technical experience, deadlifted 105lbs, made decisions on how to live my life, and a thousand other things that deserve to be celebrated.
  3. Be Fearless (aka No More Subtweets)
    I never thought of myself as a perfectionist. Though, now I can see I hide behind a lot of spreadsheets, refuse to go up in weights, refuse to start certain ventures (like this blog), etc. until the conditions are acceptable to me. Neil Gaiman wrote beautifully on making mistakes in the new year. This year and beyond, I’m going to stop being afraid to fail. I’m going to speak more. Be direct. Strengthen my voice. This also means, no more subtweets. So I’m just going to have to tell people directly when they’re being an asshole!
  4. Find My Heart Center
    I didn’t know the path I was on last year. I was uninterested and unmotivated. I questioned my return to the comics industry. I was directionless and frustrated. This is still a journey but at least I’m moving again. Luckily, I’ve found myself in alignment with BOOM! on this new project — a movement really. I’m thankful they’re letting me spearhead this movement; I found a good reason why I returned to comics and why I should stay. I can’t wait to share more in the next month when it launches! It’s something that matters to me. I found that spark on uniting comics and marketing!
  5. Go on More Adventures (aka Be More in Love with LA and Beyond)
    My roomie and I created the best nest last year. So much so that I hardly ever left it. That’s going to change. I want to fall in love with LA all over again! I miss concerts and galleries and driving down PCH and discovering local eateries. I also want to take a real vacation — one that isn’t centered around a comic convention. I already have one laid out. A reunion in Austin, TX with Melissa!
  6. Read and Write More
    It was important to me in 2014, while retreating in my BatCave, to remind people what they mean to me. I’m going to keep that up. I love reminding people how special and important they are. I’m going to write more love letters. Write on this blog. I also have an insane pile of comics and books on my desk and floor that I need to read. I want to celebrate all these talented creators and stumble upon more!
  7. Volunteer More
    In 2013, I found a local organization, 826LA, that supports things important to me — literacy and creative writing for kids. I plan on committing more hours. I also want to find more opportunities on how I can support another cause near and dear to my heart, To Write Love on Her Arms (TWLOHA).
  8. Be Grateful
    Adopt this daily and share it with others. This one’s pretty simple.

2013 saw a positive me. Sickeningly sweet positivity. 2014 saw a more cynical me. Who will I be in 2015? Who knows? Hopefully if I continue on this path, I land somewhere in between.

Happy 2015!

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